Borrowed Sunshine!

Some times its just enough to listen and be told what to do

sometimes its just enough to have ‘amma’ run her fingers through your hair

or tell you what exercise to do and why

with evidences (of proved effectiveness)from her friends list

sometimes its just great to have ‘achan’ get you your favourite eat

and advice you to read more or write more

sometimes all you need is to sit down with your mom dad

fretting over what how less or more you eat

or how good or bad you are at something

sometimes its just a walk to the beach

or a visit to the thali temple

or a dinner at Paragon Hotel

or a trip to your uncle and aunt

who will serve you pickled gooseberries

or nicely cooked ‘vazha pindi’

and listen to old times talk for old times sake

and carry a bit of that borrowed sunshine back

to last you for a timed existence

of meeting dead end/line-s and making pretenses

of living happily ever after!


Sweet Innocence and You

When was the last time you allowed yourself the luxury of receiving generous love,simple warm and unadulterated love from a child? When was the last time you were visited by such a bounty of goodness? When have you in your busy life allowed love to seep into every core of your being, love that is innocent, selfless and all-giving?

When you are busy hurrying from one boardroom to another, when you are counting days for the pay check, when you are rushing from 1 EMI to another, one selfie to the next, to just heading nowhere in search of what you don’t know about or are sure of having, when every day is a long complaint and a constant crib then you should know that it is high time you spent some time with  children . That you allowed yourself to bask in the glory of love, a child alone can shower on you. That the wisdom from the purity of his/her soul is all that you need to heal yourself.

And when you soak in that delightful sunlight of love that breaks all barriers of pretense and  sophistication, you will for sure, feel recharged, re-born. So fathers, mothers, aunts and uncles who have the blessing of having a child around you, drop everything and rush to his/her holy presence, its your appointment with divinity itself. Allow yourself the chance to be blessed 🙂


Movies and thoughts!

So I have been grumpy and nasty for some time and so has the world been with me. Strangely though I see this grumpyness seeping into my character and my personality acquiring more shades of grey than I would want it to have. So I have decided to break the cycle. I decide to sit out with some movies. And I look up, ‘Dasvidaniya’, the hindi movie starring Vinay Pathak, Rajat Kapoor which is so good and infact Vinay Pathak who plays the lead role is so adorable that I look some other movies for the pleasure of watching him act. The guy is brilliant. Gosh! I am like, how does he do that?!  Why don’t we see enough movies from him?

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I then end up watching ‘Bheja Fry’, which is hilarious. I know, these have been around for some time and perhaps I am a little too late but as they say better late than never. ‘Bheja Fry’ was thoroughly enjoyable that I was cracking all through. What a story! Some brilliant acting, great comic timing, much better than the Khans and Kapoors out there.


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Well,some movies stay on in your heart and mind, like say ‘Juilie and Julia’, or ‘The Great Debators’, or ‘The Invictus’. So, will ‘Dasvidaniya’ stay with me for a long, long time.

I am not some one to make ‘to-do’ lists or obsess over completion of tasks. I am rather too relaxed for my own good, most of the time, at least!

I do however, have a list of things  in my ‘basket list’- buckets could be too small for me!

So, here it goes!

  • Who do I count the most on the planet? My parents and my daughter, hmm.. that said, my wish is to travel with them to some place some time soon. Have some good time, we all deserve it.
  • What gives me happiness? Oh! absolutely, it is to write and to speak and to train or teach and I know I am pretty good at that, well more than okayish! I am going to spend more time writing, writing everyday, in the late night, preferably!( A book, maybe!) I am going to rejoin toastmasters to enjoy speaking again. I am going to spend more time training and teaching. Maybe Sunday classes for those interested!
  • How do I want to live? Well, health is all important, so I am committing myself to good health, daily exercise, thoughtful food choices. And yes, reduce waste, in terms of using menstrual cups instead of sanitary pads, figuring ways out to minimize kitchen waste.
  • How do I want to be? I want to be elegant, neatly dressed, feeling good about myself, learning something new always makes me feel on top of the world, so I am going to learn to write, read and speak Kannada, it’s high time I did.
  • What else? Yes, some fun. Meet up with friends ever so often, watch movies, read books, go to theater, eat good food, bake/ cook nice stuff. And some solo trips to nowhere particular!Yes, I also want to cook 1, at least 1 Master Chef kind of food!

hmmm…looks so perfect! With smiles and hopes and a hugest hug of love, here’s to 2018, and the universe conspires!


Relax Momsie, Relax

Relax Momsie, relax

Take a deep breath

Take 2 steps away (from me!)

It’s ok  if I  fail

I will make it up some way

It’s ok  if my dress is not the best

I  still feel confident and that’s more important

It’s fine  for us not to go on holidays

Take selfies and post pics on FB

I am super chill without a smart phone.

It’s just fine that you did not look great at PTM

That was not what it was meant to be anyways!

It’s fine momsie that I am glowing in darkness

You know that grandfather is dark and bright at the same time !

It’s ok momie that I cannot go to movies, to KFC’s, Dominos and MacD’s

Our occasional Uphaar trip is just fine for me

It’s ok that our home is shabby, it is still a home

That our car is dirty, it’s still a four wheeler

That there are creases on my shirt sometimes

That I reach school late or I get punished

That sometimes someone laughs at me

And I know how to laugh right back.

That you didn’t go to college or nana doesn’t work

That you sometimes says ‘sit’ for ‘shit’ and other wise!

That some people will never like you

and some will never understand you.

That you will never be Aishwarya Rai

and I will never be Aradhya/Taimur or whatever.

Don’t worry, momsie, coz I got selected for Basket Ball

And Raju is giving me his jersey and his shoes

Help me work on my Basket Ball plz

Can we now celebrate with Bisibelebath?!



Just Let It Be!

The untruths


the silences


the pretenses


allow the honesty

to dislike what is disliked

like what is liked

the way life is lived

the way life is seen

to take or leave

what is taken or left

to move on

or to stay back

to preach

or not be preached to

to grow old in youth

to grow young in old

to be man as woman

or be woman as man

let be

just let it be!

Not just a pressure cooker

shining in silver hue

a rounded belly full of stories

holding secrets of ages aplenty

she sings to my lady

and she rushes to her service.(Not well cooked? oh, yeah, needs two more whistles, I guess!)

The versatile and supremely talented pressure cooker is indeed the star of the Indian kitchen. From ‘biriyani’ to the humble ‘dal’ to ‘kheer’ anything and everything in the kitchen has to be touched by the holy belly of the ‘PC’.

I was so impressed by the fried rice that my pressure cooker cooked the other day, that I sat down to relish it with salad and pickle even as it was piping hot.(I believe in self-help first!) But then I got to think with reverence of ‘her’ without whom we are helpless vassals in the kitchen,our most trusted commander, our lady-in-charge, the Pressure Cooker.

I was not surprised therefore,  when I came across quite a few short films on the same theme on youtube. A Kannada short film -Pressure Cooker by Vinayaka Kodsara is a grim reminder of how ambitions can kill families and relationships.

A Tamil short film of the same name is about the pressure a school student faces before his board exams and how his father sits down to explain and make him realize the importance of not giving in to the tension that builds up in day to day life.

I must mention another beautifully done film starring the erstwhile tele star ‘Pallavi Joshi’ of the ‘Mrignayanee’ fame. The story is about a middle aged housewife who is looking for change, some attention and a more meaningful life even if it is by changing the pressure cooker at home.

The Pressure cooker is a much abused metaphor in the day to day conversation in the Indian domestic context with a range as wide and meandering- starting from academics to spirituality to the grind of modern living- nothing captures that feeling of build up of pressure as does the ‘PC’.

So as long as the ‘PC’ rules my kitchen, my life is sorted. So should yours be! Just don’t forget to let go off the steam sometimes!



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